Day 105

Boris Tellegen


After cracking a bit today and yelling at the boys and C, I feel like complete shit. And in the absence of alcohol to blame, I am now realizing how much stress has to do with it.

All it takes is a few weeks of high-intensity stress at work plus lack of sleep to cause me to really fray around the edges. 

When I first quit, work was a lot easier and the kids were, in general, sleeping through the night (as I remember anyway). And I credited my feeling of mental balance to the lack of alcohol. I’m sure in part, it was. And no matter what, I know it helps – a TON.

But now the effect of stress stands out in stark relief. 

Gotta find my happy place, and get some better rest tonight.