Day 15

Sunday. Tough mental day today…I can’t put my finger on why but just feeling really discouraged. It’s definitely a day I would have drank heavily to escape the mental discomfort.

Drinking helped me escape the hard work of dealing with the unhappy parts of my marriage, and now – I’m confronted with it. And although I’m trying to work on my part of things, some days just feel hopeless. The fact that I’m sober and he’s not is making it harder to find connection.

I just wrote and then deleted most of this post. Struggling with how much of what I’m feeling is petty and due to my own internal angst as I deal with quitting. 

When it comes to dealing with emotions, being sober kind of sucks.